Right now !

Please,

I’m broken now, and I just want you to hold me in your arms

to run your hands through my hair and tell me I’m breathtaking

I want you to rock me slowly and sing to me softly

I want you to whisper in my ear that you love me and you've made a mistake

I want you to tell me that we were never truly apart, and it only hurt so much to say goodbye because we each hold pieces of the other in our hearts

I want to hear you say that you will never be able to forget the way I make you feel

that you will never forget how my laugh sounds , or the way I murmur your name in bed

I want you to tell me that no one else’s fingers fit in the spaces between yours like mine do, and no one else comes close to filling the gaps in your life

that even when you don’t want to, you see my face everywhere

in every cloud, at the bottom of your cereal bowl , sketched out in the drops of rain on your window;

its like my image is imprinted on the back of your eyelids and my touch on the innermost part of your soul

I want you to admit that I deserve better, to tell me that I deserve someone perfect

[but honestly, I don’t want perfect, I just want you]

so my eyes beg you to tell me that you’ve changed as my tears scream for you to say that you regret leaving me

[and yet, my body shakes knowing it will only hurt more when you leave me a second time]

Please,

I’m broken now, and I want you to stop telling me lies like you left to protect me

I want you to stop making empty promises like telling me you came back because you loved me

because if you really loved me you would have stayed

you would have fought for me, you would have fought for us

you wouldn’t have to ask me how to prove that you truly love me,

because instead you would take my hand and breathe me in and promise not to let go

you would understand that love means making sacrifices and fighting and believing

that love is the way I gave you my heart and trusted you not to break it

that love means you would never hurt me because it would hurt you more

but mostly, you would know that love means never giving up and never letting go

which this is how I know you never loved me at all

[you let me go]